breathe

in april 2005, i lost a very dear cousin. age 14. suicide.

she was an angel in the family.
never rude.
never misbehave.
good results.
good manners.
one of those filial kind of daughter everyone dreams about.

her family is a happy one, with lots of love.
no doubt about it.

till to date, not a single soul in this world knows why she opted to commit suicide.
none of us managed to find out a single trace of reason for her to do so.

it crosses my mind, how much has she missed?
her first love, her bright future, her first marriage, her first career.

is this world too tough for her?
is this world too cruel for her?
is this world too unfair for her?

i dun deny that at times, when life is simply too horrible, too cruel; the thought of giving everything up, and ending it for good does cross my mind.
but the thought of my parents and my love ones shedding tears endlessly is definitely too painful for me to be so selfish (and perhaps, you too)

so, my dears...
breathe breathe and breathe.
that is the first step to all complicated solutions in this world.
i have faith in you to overcome it.

p/s: Xen, email/buzz me if u need someone to talk to.