The "Bad Boy"

one of my ex, M, was nothing but a bad boy.
and for the past few days, i've been having weird dreams about him.

M was a liar.
M doesn't have a fix income.
M was a womanizer.
M was lazy.

whatever things u can condemn about a typical malay man, he definitely has it.
which makes u question me, why was i with him?

i was trying to get over someone at that time.
i know i was selfish and stupid.
but at the same time, i know i am capable to stop when necessary.

i was with him - just to get the thrill of being at another end of the world.
the not so proper world.

and it is this kind of "no-string-attached" involvement that makes the whole relationship more spicy.

one moment we are off.
one moment we are on.

and since he is something like an accessory, he is a disposable item too.
or at times, disposed item.

i wasn't sure why did he fly into my dream.
but i'll take it as a signal - my heart wants to see him.

nice eh?

i am crazy.