amazed

yes, this is my first reaction when i first came back to our blog.

leave your nickname at least, if u are too shy to let the world know.
=)

coughing badly by the way.
cross your finger that i'll cough my lungs out and sell it with a good price.
hehe...

going away from home

this is one of those blog i write before leaving home.

i dun call myself a 100% sentimental one, but this is what i have been feeling since the last trip back home with a girlfriend.

it feels so sad to leave two people behind, despite knowing that they will be perfectly alrite without my presence. i have been out around 4 years. and i admit that for the last four years, i din really spend enough time with them. that was only uni years... and i am thinking what will happen to me and my parents when i start working? especially when being posted to far far away.

have anyone of you thought about this?

taking the 9am bus. upset.

the one about relationship

so, everyone is avoiding to blog about relationship.

what is relationship to a 16 years-old?
do u bank all ur hope on this person - as in wanting to marry her/him?
do u take it as a game - calling quit anytime u want/feel appropriate?
do u take it as it is - one step at a time - not too much hope, not too much fun?

let me know. and this time, leave a name plz, my dear.

the one about the rain outside

i dunno. but i really like the rain.
especially the smell of it before it actually comes.
it is like the anticipation is so great... a kind of hope - to cleanse.

it is raining really heavily outside as i type this piece.
still remember i used to be unavailable during rain.
the fact that i play in the rain even during my university years was/is something others couldn't accept.

i used to wish that it would rain while walking home from class.
i used to wish that after my bath, i would still be able to watch the rain.
i used to wish that there will be a rainbow.

i pause my life to watch the rain till now.
something about it which makes it worthwhile.

The Intro

so, it started off actually with a peaceful nite with a cup of coffee and a heart to surf the internet. And with the air-cond freezing my half-conscious brain. In the comfort of my own room.

HOME SWEET HOME.
Definitely.

i need to crap. that is what i told myself.

And out of nowhere, i started chatting with this young man here whom i have been keeping an eye on (in a professional way, if i may add). Ahem, after all, i AM a professional. :) (stop sneering at me, scott!)

so, we chatted quite a bit (and bitched a lot).

then suddenly, i found myself discussing with him if there should be a common ground for all of us to crap (professionally, again).
and after 9 hours of sleep, i woke up feeling extra good.
and sat down, and decided ... WHY NOT?

so, this is it.

You are the reason I am writing This.