the one about stupid guys

lets drink to the dick-less boobs-ful world. yum seng!!!

i am so over someone...

dear dear... it is funny to have a guy checking on you - to see if u are still interested in him.

so, once upon a time, somewhere in Jan 2005, i had a crush with this Old Man. and he very well knows that i like him. we have a professional kind of relationship. but unofficially, we played anonymous through sms. sounded crazy, but believe me, it is definitely an adrenaline rush everytime we bump into each other.

however, since he expires earlier than expected (he did something really wrong), i stopped everything. yes, i was sad for a little while.
but he was damn cruel and cool at that time.

and yesterday, i was happily chatting with the whole bunch of crappy people. and this Old Man just walked over to talk to my friends. but, come on, u can really feel that the attention is so much on ME actually.

so, out of courtesy (since we have a professional relationship too)... i asked about his health (since he is old). and u know, the conversation just rolled on. And you can actually feel that, he is checking if i am still head over heels over him.

really sorry to say, i am just being courteous.
you know, courteous?
sorry... line closed.

life is a bed of chicken rice

dun u agree with me?

it is nice but fattening.
it is fragrant but oily.
it is yellow but sickening.

most of all, it makes me completely crazy.
like now.
right, shameem?

i dun understand this

in the headline today of a chinese newspaper:

a lady stabbed her lover to death upon discovering that he is a married man.

and i think this isn't the first time this kind of news making the headlines.

what i dun understand is, why does one need to dwell with another person since both parties fairly well know that there isn't any love anymore? you are only cheating and being cheated.

it is another trade. trade of convenience.
it might be because of money.
or company.

not out of love.

and would u want to be still in this kind of relationship knowing that your conscience is shouting NO?

think about it.
you wouldn't want to be hurted that way too.
so, stop doing so to others.

what goes around, will come around.
do us all a favour, watch out for yourself.

breathe

in april 2005, i lost a very dear cousin. age 14. suicide.

she was an angel in the family.
never rude.
never misbehave.
good results.
good manners.
one of those filial kind of daughter everyone dreams about.

her family is a happy one, with lots of love.
no doubt about it.

till to date, not a single soul in this world knows why she opted to commit suicide.
none of us managed to find out a single trace of reason for her to do so.

it crosses my mind, how much has she missed?
her first love, her bright future, her first marriage, her first career.

is this world too tough for her?
is this world too cruel for her?
is this world too unfair for her?

i dun deny that at times, when life is simply too horrible, too cruel; the thought of giving everything up, and ending it for good does cross my mind.
but the thought of my parents and my love ones shedding tears endlessly is definitely too painful for me to be so selfish (and perhaps, you too)

so, my dears...
breathe breathe and breathe.
that is the first step to all complicated solutions in this world.
i have faith in you to overcome it.

p/s: Xen, email/buzz me if u need someone to talk to.